Rumors

It has come to my attention in the last few days that there have been quite a few rumors going around about me... some of them vicious... lately that have greatly hurt me and some people around me. What is worst is I know that whoever started and/or continued these rumors is at least somewhat close to me. No, I don't know who it is and I don't think I care to know. But it hurts a lot. All the new rumors are just that, rumors. There is not a shred of truth about any of them. There has also been some gossip about my past that has been resurfacing lately. Most of it is half-truths, the people spreading this gossip don't know the whole truth. Some of it is outright false, and some of it is true. But the fact of the patter, it is in the past, my past, it whoever (again I don't know who) is spreading it really should consider how their actions affect people before they speak.

So I have decided that I am not posting on my blog for a while, as things I post here and the comments I receive will probably just fuel things more. I am going to stop until the rumors and gossip have subsided some. This does not mean I plan to stop talking to people, if you would like to talk to me you are welcome to email me or give me a call, I will be very happy to hear from you. I just like some privacy in my life, and having an open forum about it doesn't seem fit with that wish.

So I will leave you all with this last thought as it may be quite a while before my next post. Rumors and gossip are nothing but destructive, no good can come of either of them. They hurt more than just the person who is gossiped about, they often hurt a lot of people around them. Next time anyone has the urge to spread a rumor or gossip, I would suggest talking to the subject of the gossip first. See how they are feeling. Afterwards, I doubt anyone would still want to spread potentially hurtful things around.

~Wildflower

Interesting or just plain weird?

So I am sitting here bored out of my mind not really able to do anything but sit around as I am sweating out a low-grade fever at the moment. I don't have chills or anything, I am just hot. Really hot. And it is about 60 degrees out right now and I am sitting next to the open window. And go figure, I got to go spend an oh-so-happy two hours at my favorite (insert sarcasm here) place, Kaiser this afternoon. I was feeling better until I left there. Go figure!

So in absence of me doing anything cool tonight to write about, I have posted another picture I took in Lake Tahoe. I saw my foot there through the clear water, and for some reason I needed to capture it. Thoughts? As the title of this post says, interesting or just plain weird?

~Wildflower

Yellow Fish in a Brown Pond

So here is a picture of my trip to Tahoe over the weekend. I had to take all my pics on my phone because I forgot my camera. Nothing too exciting, it was fun but no great photo ops. But I did love this fish. He was bright yellow thing hanging out in a tank of brown spotted trout. He hung out right next to the glass until I walked away, like he wanted me to take his picture. Apparently this is an exotic fish breed introduced to Lake Tahoe many years ago but thrived in the Lake environment, despite bearing no resemblance to his fellow lake-dwellers. I though he was neat, I've been to Tahoe many times but never seen one of his breed. He was the only one of his kind I could see through the glass, but there were a lot of trout swimming around. Don't we all feel like this little yellow fish sometimes?

~Wildflower

Back to WW

So I rejoined Weight Watchers tonight, and I was happy that the group at the Stockton center was much more diverse and lively than the one at the Lodi center where I used to go. I sat down and was instantly chatting with the women around me. But I am sure some of my posts from now on will be me b!tching about points points points. Agh. To be honest I didn't miss those at all while I was off the program. But at my weigh-in today, I discovered that I am tied for the heaviest I have ever been again, time to do something. And my counselor told me a couple weeks ago that one of the best treatments for compulsive eating is writing down everything I eat, so I figured going back on Weight Watchers would be like killing two birds with one stone, and she agreed. Even though I will probably screw most of it up while I am Tahoe this weekend, at least I have a start.

Hope all of you had a good day back from the three-day weekend!

~Wildflower

One of the coolest things I have done

So see the picture to the left. That is the living room floor of my parents' house. Some of you were there to witness this. About five years ago, they had to rip out the carpet and replace it with pergo wood paneling because our older pets were ruining (ok, let's be honest, had ruined) the carpet. We ripped out the carpet weeks before the pergo was put in because the smell had gotten bad. So we had this great okie-rigged cement floor, where you could see where the house builders had spilled paint in 1977. One night my dad and I were looking at it, commenting on the history you could see in the floor, and he said "I should take a can of spray paint and write 'Fred' across the middle of the floor"... All of a sudden I was a kid again... I looked at him and stammered "Can we do that?" and his response was "I don't give a shit". Needless to say I ran into the other room to get my brother and the friends we had over, yelling "Guys, guess what Dad said we can do?!?!?!?". So we spent the next few hours painting the floor, calling over any neighbor who was home and just covered it with random stuff. We even had our 8 year old neighbor climb through the window to help out (didn't want her walking through wet paint, she was happy to oblige and come through the window). We made the greatest abstract mural, and the best part is, it is still underneath the wood paneling in the living room, awaiting some future home owner to find it. I really like the fact that my family is forever tied to the house.

~Wildflower